Sunday, May 29, 2011

2.5 years ago

2 1/2 years ago today, I became a mom.  I saw my little fighter for the first time.  Today fills me with many emotions - sadness, hurt, angry, outrage, fury and disgust. 

Today is yet another milestone without my sweet boy.  Another day we were robbed of.  Another day that was taken from Trevor.  He will forever remain a 9 month old baby.  I can't even begin to imagine what he would look like or what new things he would be doing.  

Everyday when I close my eyes, I can see his beautiful face - it warms my heart and breaks it at the same time. 
I hope his killer is haunted everyday....haunted by her sick actions.....haunted by Trevor's beautiful face.....haunted by her new "friends" and haunted by what's to come when she has to face God.

"I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now"


  1. Kelly, my heart aches for you. Our sons are just born just ten days apart. I wish you peace...

  2. Hi Kelly,
    I'm a nurse in the Nicu at mercy and Ive heard so many wonderful things about you and your family. Trevor was a beautiful little boy and his story is heartbreaking. You are such a strong woman and Trevor was so incredibly lucky to have been loved by you and your husband so very much. I will keep you in my prayers. <3