Thursday, June 3, 2010

field day

Dear Trevor,

As always, I thought of you today. It was 9 months ago we said good bye. So I knew today was going to be a hard day. Today was also field day at school. I knew field day would keep my occupied and I thought I would be ok. Wrong! I watched the k-2 students go from station to station trying their best at the different events. I watched the many parents watching and cheering for their children.

I suddenly became very sad. For you see, 2 years ago, at field day, I was pregnant with you and it was so blazing hot that I passed out and was taken to the hospital by ambulance. I was only 8 weeks pregnant and so scared of losing you.

Then I was saddened because I realised I will never get field day with you. I will never get to watch you run the 50 yard dash or cheer you on as you do the various events. I know Daddy would want to be there as he is the more "sporty" competitive one.

There is so much that was taken from you and from us. So much that Daddy and I hoped for you and that we looked forward to seeing. It is not fair. We miss you so much. We miss seeing your ornery grin and your loving face.

So many people miss you. So many people have been inspired by you. Even though you are gone, you continue to live through those that love you. We have about 10 weeks left until we go to trial. I know you will be with us. Please help Daddy and I get through it. We find our strength in you my love.

Hugs and kisses galore! I love you with all my heart!

PS - Thanks for the sign :)

1 comment:

  1. Hi my name is Alexis and I have read all of your posts. This week I'm also in ocean city and we were at mini putt golf and saw the justice for Trevor magnet on the side of a car. Right when I got back to the hotel I searched it on google. You and your husband seem so strong and I hope many people come to realize the effects like shaken baby syndrome has on people and all the ways to prevent the violence. I'll have to inform my child development and exploring early childhood teacher and class about this occurance to help sread the word. Goodluck at trial and I hope you guys have a wonderful vacation and get a chance to relax.